Lacking Motivation and the Happenings

So I am totally lacking motivation went off my whole 30 at the end of last week and I have eaten terrible since. . .thai food, pizza, popcorn. . .I need some motivation or positive thoughts sent my way to keep it up through the summer months, it should be easier these months but I lost my groove.

I did however meet my goal of losing 10 lbs by memorial day I got down to 214.0 lbs!!! Now I bounce between 214.0 and 218.0 and that's pretty average for me to bounce between 5 lbs but I want to lose another 10 lbs before July 7th and I just don't have it in me right now for some reason.  The heat does not help, with running or with cooking. . .no A/C kinda ruins my meal plans, but we are trying a lot of grilling recipes to make up for my lack of cooking in the kitchen.

So besides losing those 10 lbs I hit another big goal of mine.  I have been running at 12:30 min mile for the last several years since Owen was born.  But I knew I was stronger and lighter and that I could run faster so I started pushing myself and watching my speed on my Nike+ my fastest mile to date is 10:20 min mile!!!!! I knocked 2 min off my time.  Now I have only been running one mile at a time lately mostly because I have been running in the heat of the day but I think I could keep that pace up for a 5k.

I recently found out that I will be unemployed as of the first week of July. . .can I just say I am sooooo excited!  More time to work out more time to sleep more time to play with Owen!  I work nights and it is literally killing me.  My hope is with a normal sleep schedule and regular day time schedule my body will finally regulate it's self and I can have a normal routine to stick with and the weight will just melt off!! I know I'll still have to work my butt off but maybe I'll see the results a little faster. . .that is my hope anyways.

So I guess I should post more often since so much has happened since my last post.  Maybe with my new schedule I will become a better blogger.

Bruised but not broken

It was a rough week of workouts. . .I only made it to 3 this week but they were tough.  After doing some crazy lifting on Monday I am bruised from my crotch to my knees. . .I've never had a bruise in one particular location before and it is a little awkward, last week I almost set up an annual check up with my gynecologist. . .good thing I didn't. . .she would have for sure thought I was being beaten!

I got over my bruises and made it back to the gym on Tuesday for some more lifting, double unders and toes to bar. . .that was a killer WOD my arms felt like they would fall off when I was done. But it feels so good to sweat and I really do love lifting especially now that I feel like I know what I'm doing and know how much weight I can handle.

I got lazy toward the end of the week and it didn't help that the workouts didn't sound like a whole lot of fun.  Pretty much anything that involves squats I'm not a huge fan of.  My knees kinda hate me especially when doing squats so I kinda avoid those WOD's when I can.  I know I'm a wuss.

I have been doing a lot of Paleo baking. . .unfortunately I'm at work and forgot my cook books to type of the recipes but keep reading I'll get them up on the blog eventually.  Work has been slow I only blog at work and I haven't worked for a week, so I guess I'll have to start blogging during Owen's nap, when/if he naps.

Delicious Paleo treats I've made, I'll get the recipes or links up soon!:

Key Lime Pie
Apple Cupcakes
Waffles
Carrot Cupcakes

I was going to make paleo sugar cookies but I lacked several expensive ingredients so we made the real thing and I ate one and sent the rest to work with Adam.

I've been doing pretty good with my meals I'm still 100% paleo except for my 2 cheats a week.  I try to Zone as best I can but the Zone part is hard and takes more time and thought.

I have noticed that I've been super moody lately but that my moody days are always the day after a cheat meal. . .the cheat meals  I don't think are really even worth it if not only my body feels crappy but my emotions are all messed up too!

I am strong both body and mind and I'm better when I stick to what I know my body needs instead of giving in to what I think I want!  I haven't been perfect in this challenge but I have come so far and I'm doing and feeling so much better than ever before!

NEW CHALLENGES!!

I have not given up in fact it's quite the opposite.  After spending Christmas with family and eating pretty much everything I try to avoid I came back feeling like poop.  But I did have a few huge accomplishments while I was gone.  I attended two WOD's at two different gyms on vacation in the middle of winter. . .I normally don't workout when I'm visiting family but I did it.  I got up early and I went on my own and I realized even more than I had before that my gym "Crossfit Verve" is pretty much the best gym in the world!  I didn't get any instruction at either gym I attended, the people were nice enough but my expectations were way too high.

Anyways I got back from visiting the family and immediately started a whole30.  It felt great to be eating healthy again and I never wanted to cheat or go back to the junk I was eating before.  I completely my whole30 with a final weigh in and body fat dunk test. . .and before completing my whole30 I started a 6 week challenge, I'm doing it on my own but Crossfit verve is doing a big competition of it all.  I am trying to add Zone to my paleo eating and it is hard to measure every single meal and add protein, veggies and fat every time I put something in my mouth.  But regardless of how I do I write everything down! I've made it to at least 4 workouts including yoga since I started and hoping to just keep adding to it.

Challenge starting stats Jan 25th, 2013:

227.0 lbs

My body fat dunk test was better than I had expected even though I was only down 5 lbs from September I lost 10 lbs of body fat and gained 5 lbs of lean muscle mass.  Also I dropped 4% body fat!!! 

Starting Measurements:

Bust: 39

waist: 35

hips: 49

Arms: 16

Legs: 28

I still have a long ways to go but it's good to know I'm making progress. . .hopefully this challenge will get me over this plateau and get me to my pre-pregnancy weight just over 10 lbs away from that.

I told my husband his has to start eating 2 paleo meals a day and has to cut out soda completely so far so go, he hasn't been perfect but he fits into his jeans that had gotten too tight so it's a start.  It makes it easier too when I don't have to make him something different to eat! Being the awesome wife that I am I have found some awesome recipes that helps him get through the day while feeling like he gets an extra treat, a paleo treat!

One of our favorites has been

Paleo Chocolate Pudding

1 Can full fat coconut milk

1 cup dates

a few drops of vanilla

4-5 Tb. cocoa powder

blend the dates and some of the coconut milk in a food processor, then strain the small date pieces to get a better "pudding" texture. add the remainder of the coconut milk and other ingredients in the food processor and mix through.  place in fridge until thickens. ( A couple ours) it tastes good immediately too if you just can't wait.  Here is the link for the original recipe.  My husband loved mixing some fresh berries in with it.  ENJOY!!

BODY FAT DUNK STATS

I got dunked today:

I knew the results weren't going to be great and that I would still be fat but I want something to compare to and something to work towards, plus it was an incredible deal!

WEIGHT  233.2

BODY FAT 46.2%

To be honest I was just happy to not be 50% or more fat!  Plus I've lost 3 lbs in the last few weeks!! I'll do a normal weigh on my scale at home next month as planned.

I do have something to compare my numbers with, back in May of this year I went to a weight loss doctor just to see if they could help me (wow the cost was outrageous!) and they did a body fat test but on a scale where they send an eletric current through your body to get some stats here are those stats

May 15, 12

WEIGHT 259

BODY FAT 52%

Not to shabby from just a few months ago!  So now I'd like to lose 45 lbs before I get tested again which should put me at about 27% body fat.  My final goal is to be at about 15% (I'd love to be in the "athletic" range for body fat percentage. . .but for now I'll baby step my way there!



What's that on my finger you ask. . . .

Here I am wearing my wedding ring. . .out and about on a regular basis, this was the best birthday present I could have given myself my birthday was the first day in over 2 years that I was able to  wear my wedding ring without it cutting off my circulation or causing me pain.  Happy birthday to me and THANK YOU PALEO!!!  My finger doesn't feel so naked anymore oh and now all those hot guys that were always trying to hit on me will know I'm a taken woman!!

WOD Wednesday Sept 26th

  5 rounds for time

50 double unders I did 150 singles

15 elbows to knee I did butt lifts or high toes on the ground

40 meters Heavy farmer carry 

My time 22:29

I was able to rush from work to make the 6:30 am class today, it was great to get the workout in before I went to bed I felt like I had so much time when I woke up!

Look back tomorrow when I post my body fat test results, I'm getting dunked tomorrow to find out my body fat percentage. . .SCARY!  This will give me a better idea of where I'm at and where I want to be!

It's official I AM AWESOME

CROSS FIT FAMOUS!!

I'm on the Cross fit Verve WOD BLOG!!!

Go HERE to see my cross fit debute.

Scroll down to "Thursday" posted on September 19th.

I am there in all my cross fit glory!!!

NO EXCUSES!

There is always a good excuse not to. . .

people even help me justify my excuses. . .

"you just had a baby"

"you work nights"

"you don't have a car during the day"

"you're tired you need your sleep"

"It will be easier when I'm thinner"

"It's too hot outside"

"My ipod is dead"

When it really comes down to it, there is always something else I could be doing, there is never enough time, I do feel guilty for leaving my son and husband to go workout after I have been gone all night at work and sleeping all day, but I have to do it.  It will never be easier, it will never be convenient but I've come to the point that it is just something that I have to do and I have to make time for it.  My house might be a little messier and I might not always make a gourmet meal but I have made my health a priority, it has been neglected too long.

On the Fourth of July I ran the Liberty run at Washington Park in Denver.  It was a 4 mile run around the park.  Nothing fancy, since I usually run 3 miles or more 3-5 times a week, just something to get me up and running on a holiday.  I did my best, but I'm always scared of running to fast to start and then burning out before I finish so I ran slow but I kept a pretty good steady pace throughout the race.  I wanted to stop more than anything when I came around the first loop (about 1.5 miles in) and I was passed by the fastest of the runners that were finishing up their 4th mile, ALREADY!!!!  Not only that but I had also been passed by a few speed walkers, nothing like running and being passed by walkers!!!  

I DIDN'T STOP RUNNING AND I DIDN'T SLOW DOWN! In fact my last 2 miles were about 30 seconds faster than my first two!  I finished that race running every last inch of it!  I did it! No excuses, even when being passed by walkers!!

 Owen ran up and gave me a big hug at the end, now this is him running away from me.

Molly and Jason joined me on the run, they are who I have to thank for introducing me to Crossfit!

What I want!!!

I Want to be STRONG!!! 

 I Want to be COMPETITIVE!!!

 I Want to be FIT!!!!

 I Want to LOVE MY BODY!! 

 I Want to be SURROUNDED BY OTHERS THAT ARE STRONG AND FIT

 I Want to FEEL MY SORE MUSCLES EVERY DAY!

I'm ready to be the person I know I am and I want everyone else around me to see that person too.  I'm ready to work hard. I'm ready to be able to do anything I want: rock climb, hike, run a marathon. . .I'm ready to start my life!